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I’ve just realized

that I didn’t have time to REALLY miss my kids when they were away at camp. I’m glad they’re back… I love them.. I wouldn’t trade them for anything… but I find myself wishing they had the entire summer with their dad. Foolish for me to even think about it, I know, given the fact that my ex is MHP.. but I do.

I’d love to have time to really miss them.

Why does that make me feel guilty?

Maybe it’s b/c I’m not fitting into the accepted role of the mom who misses her children each moment they’re apart. This one lady who’s son went to church camp told me how much she missed him all week long, how sad she was to not see him each day… I just looked at her. I didn’t want to tell her that I didn’t miss my kids & that I was thankful for the break. I should have.. the look of shock on her face might have been worth it.

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I’ve just realized

that I didn’t have time to REALLY miss my kids when they were away at camp. I’m glad they’re back… I love them.. I wouldn’t trade them for anything… but I find myself wishing they had the entire summer with their dad. Foolish for me to even think about it, I know, given the fact that my ex is MHP.. but I do.

I’d love to have time to really miss them.

Why does that make me feel guilty?

Maybe it’s b/c I’m not fitting into the accepted role of the mom who misses her children each moment they’re apart. This one lady who’s son went to church camp told me how much she missed him all week long, how sad she was to not see him each day… I just looked at her. I didn’t want to tell her that I didn’t miss my kids & that I was thankful for the break. I should have.. the look of shock on her face might have been worth it.

Oldest Daughter

just asked me if she can have a cel phone for her 12th birthday next month. I reminded her that I don’t have a cel phone.. I didn’t use it often, so cancelled my service after my contract was up. I also told her that MHP & I have agreed that she doesn’t need one until she starts driving.

She said, in her pre-teen dramatic fashion, that waiting 4 years will ruin her life. All her friends have cel phones. She NEEDS one.

Good grief.

The Giver by Lois Lowry

I checked this book out at the local library.. it’s on the top 100 banned books of 1990 – 2000 list. I had it on my bed, planning to start reading it last night after the kids went to bed.

Oldest daughter saw it & said, “Hey Mom, can I read THE GIVER? I love that book! I read it in 5th grade with Mrs. W.”

OK. I like to think that I know what my kids do at school, that I am an attentive parent & that I work with the teachers to help provide a good education for my children. I read with them, talk about their day, make sure they get their homework done & assignments/projects completed on time. WHY didn’t I know that she’d read that book?

I felt kind of weird that I didn’t know.

BTW, she stayed up late last night reading & spent a few hours today & read the entire book.

It’s obvious that I’m procrastinating,

isn’t it? I need to pack up more stuff today & just cannot get motivated. I just don’t care right now. UGH. I’ve had a lot of fun browsing through blogs today & have found several that are worth a second look. When I have time (when will that be?) I’ll go back & spend more time reading them. What I’ve seen so far, I’ve liked.

It’s obvious that I’m procrastinating,

isn’t it? I need to pack up more stuff today & just cannot get motivated. I just don’t care right now. UGH. I’ve had a lot of fun browsing through blogs today & have found several that are worth a second look. When I have time (when will that be?) I’ll go back & spend more time reading them. What I’ve seen so far, I’ve liked.

My Organic Lifestyle

I came across this blog today & really like it.. but there was no way to “blog this” on the site that I could find. Putting it here so I will be able to look back at it later.

http://myorganiclifestyle.blogspot.com/